Merry Christmas

Hi my sweet angel,

Another Christmas has gone by with out you and it felt a little empty again. I keep thinking the emptiness will get better, or lessen, just some sort of healing will happen, and although it has gotten better with God's redeeming grace, it is still visible. I wish I could just peek in a looking glass and see you playing at heaven's gate.

Charlotte is amazing and I sat wondering what your personality would be like. Her personality is so much like Gavyn's. Sweet, quiet, an observer before a do-er. Where as Emi is spunky, and lives so very freely. What would you have been like? I still see that curly hair of yours and think you may have been a little of the orneryy, smiley girl that both Emi and your cousin Kamryn are.

Daddy bought me a new laptop for Christmas so that I can write to you more often. I know it may seem silly, but I have so many little conversations with you everyday in my head, I thought this would be a place to just write them all down freely. Someday, we will be able to sit down and talk all about these conversations that I wished I could have had with you on my lap, but this will do won't it?

I love you forever,
Mommy